My A-mae-Zing Journey...

Sitting with my eyes closed, I felt Deanna’s hands on me. I knew from the last couple of sessions that this was doing me good, though I had no idea why.
Ten years earlier, when I was 17, my twin sister died. For years, I had moved through the motions of life: with sex, drinking, plenty of parties. But underneath, I felt numb.
Then, I met my husband, and had my daughter. Something inside me opened up and I got a glimpse of what was going on beneath the numbness - of the pain I was blocking out.
I knew something needed to be done. I needed change, and I needed help. So I started working with a grief counsellor, who had then led me to Deanna, an energy healer.
I didn’t know what that meant, but I was ready to do whatever it took. I wanted to find that happiness I once had.
As she moved her hands to my side, she paused, and spoke.
“Ok Mae, do I have your permission to remove a sword from your side?”.
I looked up at her, like, Seriously? What are doing?
I replied with a slow uneasy, “Surrre…”.
She reached forward and grabbed an imaginary sword from my body. As she mimed pulling it out - I couldn’t believe it. I could feel it coming out. Every. Inch.
And afterwards: a powerful release.
Holy sh-t.
She also told me about a women’s group she ran. Every Saturday, sitting on cushions in a circle with eight other women, I found myself beginning to talk about my feelings.
And something unlocked in me. With this, and the other healing work, I found myself in a new place, emotionally, mentally and physically.
Since then I have worked with many wonderful healers. In addition to being a Registered Nurse, I am a certified in Reiki, Hands of Light, and hypnosis. Healing is my passion. It has allowed me to come alive. The numbness has been replaced with excitement.
All those years when I was too afraid to feel the pain, I also could not feel happy. Today I am brave enough to sit with my pain and not run in fear.
As a result, I feel the full rainbow of emotions - which includes profound joy. My emotions now make me feel like I am participating in my life.
Ten years earlier, when I was 17, my twin sister died. For years, I had moved through the motions of life: with sex, drinking, plenty of parties. But underneath, I felt numb.
Then, I met my husband, and had my daughter. Something inside me opened up and I got a glimpse of what was going on beneath the numbness - of the pain I was blocking out.
I knew something needed to be done. I needed change, and I needed help. So I started working with a grief counsellor, who had then led me to Deanna, an energy healer.
I didn’t know what that meant, but I was ready to do whatever it took. I wanted to find that happiness I once had.
As she moved her hands to my side, she paused, and spoke.
“Ok Mae, do I have your permission to remove a sword from your side?”.
I looked up at her, like, Seriously? What are doing?
I replied with a slow uneasy, “Surrre…”.
She reached forward and grabbed an imaginary sword from my body. As she mimed pulling it out - I couldn’t believe it. I could feel it coming out. Every. Inch.
And afterwards: a powerful release.
Holy sh-t.
She also told me about a women’s group she ran. Every Saturday, sitting on cushions in a circle with eight other women, I found myself beginning to talk about my feelings.
And something unlocked in me. With this, and the other healing work, I found myself in a new place, emotionally, mentally and physically.
Since then I have worked with many wonderful healers. In addition to being a Registered Nurse, I am a certified in Reiki, Hands of Light, and hypnosis. Healing is my passion. It has allowed me to come alive. The numbness has been replaced with excitement.
All those years when I was too afraid to feel the pain, I also could not feel happy. Today I am brave enough to sit with my pain and not run in fear.
As a result, I feel the full rainbow of emotions - which includes profound joy. My emotions now make me feel like I am participating in my life.